Like the legend of the first humans goes, they were complete and because they became so powerful, Zeus decided to cut them in half and then make them spend their entire life looking for the other half of their souls. That’s how i feel. I don’t know how we came to be together. Separated by continents, oceans and cultures. Diana said: “come meet my awesome friend” and I walked into your office and there you were, with your handlebar mustache and your bluntness. You became everything. When you pulled me into your arms and you kissed me later that night you became everything. You are flawless in my eyes. All that you are is a perfect orchestration of traits that blend to fill every need and desire that I could ever have. Love has never been greater than this. I left because I thought Sara would be nicer to you if I was gone, I left so that you could be happy with the mother of your child. You let me leave because that way you were giving me a better life with a good man. So is it this what the stupid cliche means, the one that says that when you love someone you let them go? That when you love someone you sacrifice your happiness for their well being? Well i hate it. I wish I could just have been arrogant enough to realize that i can make you happier, that sacrifice is the dumbest thing when happiness is within grasp. I wish I had loved you just a little bit less so that I would have cared more about my happiness rather than your happiness, that i would have been selfish enough to just want you for myself.
Regrets are stupid, but I have to live with them now. And I was sure I could do it until I saw you and every bit of love that I buried into my heart came back with a force and I just thought “I can’t do this”. And then I thought about the stupid poem: “two road diverged in a wood, and I, I took the one less traveled by, and that has made all the difference”, that has closed the possibilities, that has taken me away from you, that stupid stupid road in the damn wood.
I always hated love novels and love movies and love poems because i thought they were an idealistic exaggeration of feelings. But there is no exaggeration, it’s all real and it’s forever. I love you forever cause that’s the most. But forever is far too long since you are far away.